I was feeling particularly and peculiarly low this weekend. Feeling unhappy with certain things in my life. I had a sense of ennui with where I was and what I was doing. This was all sparked by conversations and situations with friends and family that were unexpected let downs or had me thinking, “I can’t do what they do, I can’t be like that person.” Now keep in mind, monthly, I get a spike in hormones and emotions because I am a woman, but this was different. I was feeling like I am not enough. I was feeling insecure. I was feeling less than. I was feeling small.
Side Note: This is one thing that I love about Bad Bitch Affirmations. This is a documentation of my life, things that I have learned, as well as a motivational and inspirational, affirming blog for anyone and everyone who needs reassurance that they are important and can do anything they want to do. When I am feeling down I can come to this safe space and review the things I have forgotten. This is inspiration for you as well as for me.
While searching for some kind of answers as to why I was feeling this way out of the blue, and searching for someone to understand what I was going through, I came across the Declaration of Self-Esteem by Virginia Satir
“In all the world there is not one exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I choose it…I own everything about me, my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions whether they be to others or to myself…I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears…I own all of my triumphs and successes, all of my failures and mistakes…because I own all of me. I become intimately acquainted with me…by so doing, I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts…I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects I do not know…but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me…however I look and sound whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me…if later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought and felt turned out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting and keep the rest and invest something new for that which is I discard…I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me…I own me and therefore I can engineer me…I am me and I AM OKAY.”
I kept these words and meditated on them.
I re-read these words and deciphered them.
I reflected on these words and spoke with others about them.
I absorbed these words and wrote about them.
Sometimes in life there are situations that will challenge you and bring forth insecurities that you feel like you’ve tackled before, but this is just a cue to re-enforce and remind yourself of your greatness. Attack this challenge fearlessly. This is a reminder that you are magnificent.
I was feeling insecure about not living up to certain standards, not being enough for friends, and not being who I know I could be. I also realized I was admiring, and coveting an abstract idea, which was not the standard. These words helped remind me that I am the only one in this world like me. If I admire something about someone, I can incorporate that thing into my life. I can change the things I do not like about myself, and replace it with wonderful things. I am no better and no less than any other human being. I am Me. I am different. I am glorious, a goddess, a muse, a bad bitch.
This declaration has some of the same truths and themes you’ll see throughout Bad Bitch Affirmations, and it was only fitting that I should share it with you all.